for the first time i had to get up early to finish this stupid assignment. sth i used to look down upon finally starts to eat me alive. hate to be cound to school work and truly, truly being clumsy. is it some kind of PTSD? 2.5 months and i'm still sober. and h has been gone as if never existed.
super busy..drag retarded by things on hand. yet i still did the cleasing like crazy for an hour on end. and yet another paper still not finished. and tons of reading. and presentation i hate the most. turned out i can be this calm on the verge of paranoia.
10 days to COC and about 50 to con. hope i'll survive till then.
